I don’t do small chat well. Sitting around at gatherings and talking about everyone’s favorite TV show is my version of nails on a chalkboard. I’d rather just introduce myself to people by saying, “Hi. My name is Michelle. Want to talk about what’s happening in Venezuela right now?” My personality naturally leans toward talking about the heavier things, the pains and the problems in our world. It’s the stuff that seems to matter the most. Why on earth would someone want to talk about Stranger Things instead of the humanitarian crisis at our southern border?
I’ll admit it. I’m a cynic by nature. In fact, I don’t even like the debate over whether the glass is half full or half empty. My mind can’t help but formulate justifications for both the positive view and the negative view. I see both sides and everything in between, and eventually I throw my hands up in mental exhaustion and become convinced that both sides will never cease to exist, so what’s the point in arguing anyways?
I like being critically minded. I like reading scholarly texts and expanding my thoughts on contemporary issues. Sometimes, I even like being a cynic. But I have to also confess that what I’m not as good at is choosing joy and seeing the good and the beauty in this world. Things like enjoying the moment, not taking myself too seriously and laughing at the little things feel hard to do while caught up amid the evils of this world.
The Problem of Evil
My favorite book of the Bible is Ecclesiastes. I’ll never forget the first time I read Chapter 1, which states, “Meaningless! Meaningless! Everything is meaningless…There is nothing new under the sun” (vv. 2; 9), and I thought, “Exactly!” The world has always been evil, and evil just continues to repeat itself. Does it not?
This is in part why I read Revelation through an amillenial lens. It makes sense to me to read the seven seals, seven trumpets and seven bowls as recurring cycles of violence throughout history. Things certainly aren’t getting “better” as some Christians believe (a lá postmillennialism).
Granted, some of my cynicism is born from my educational background. I went to grad school and studied European history. It’s not pretty: the Spanish inquisition, the Thirty Years’ War, 19th-century Russian gulags, the Armenian genocide, the Black Plague. Yes, the 20th century was pretty awful, but so was every century before it.
Being a student of history has made it easier for me to accept the fact that this world is broken, evil and dark then to stop and see beauty in the every day.
How am I supposed to be joyful in a world that is so wretched? Why should I be happy when I know that the past, the present and the future are riddled with sex trafficking, gang violence, mass incarceration, fatherless children, despots and racism?
After a day spent helping a starving mother and her children or caring for a victim of assault (a not so uncommon day in the life of our ministry here in East Austin), stopping to enjoy a flower in our garden or a fiery sunset feels trite, superficial even.
Flashes of Light
But we need both, I think – the optimist and the cynic – for the sake of our soul, our understanding of God, and for the effectiveness of our lives in this world. If we only see the good and the beautiful, we blind ourselves to the dark realities around us and become useless to the hurting and those in need. If we only see evil and injustice, we can forget to see God; we can forget to cling to Him, let alone hope in Him.
We, cynics, have the tendency, as Henri Nouwen says in his book, The Return of the Prodigal Son, to “call trust naïve, care romantic, and forgiveness sentimental. [We] sneer at enthusiasm, ridicule spiritual fervor, and despise charismatic behavior. [We] consider ourselves realists who see reality for what it truly is and who are not deceived by ‘escapist emotions.’ But in belittling God’s joy, our darkness only calls forth more darkness.”
Nouwen continues: “People who have come to know the joy of God do not deny the darkness, but they choose not to live in it. They claim that the light that shines in the darkness can be trusted more than the darkness itself and that a little bit of light can dispel a lot of darkness. They point each other to flashes of light here and there, and remind each other that they reveal the hidden but real presence of God. They discover that there are people who heal each other’s wounds, forgive each other’s offenses, share their possessions, foster the spirit of community, celebrate the gifts they have received, and live in constant anticipation of the full manifestation of God’s glory.”
These thoughts from Nouwen give me hope; for he encourages a both/and approach to the realities of our world. It’s not simply about choosing either cynicism or joy. That would be the easy choice and, if those were my only two options, 9 times out of 10 I would choose the former. But that’s not what he’s saying.
We need to see both the darkness and the flashes of light. We need to see the evil in this world, but more importantly our focus should be on the God of this world.
Every moment of each day, every thought I have, every word I speak can be grounded in hard truths that point to God. It’s not about ignoring the darkness. It’s about believing that the light will win. It’s about clinging to God’s victory over Satan’s current rule of destruction and despair.
Why Cynics Need God’s Word
The best remedy for a would-be cynic like me is to stay rooted in God’s Word. I need to read and be daily reminded of God’s sovereignty, and His promise of justice and victory over sin, death and evil.
I need to remember 1 Corinthians 15:56-57: “The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.”
I need to memorize Romans 8:38-39: “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
I need to think about 2 Thessalonians 3:3: “But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one” along with many, many more passages in Scripture.
I might not ever find happiness in talking about things like TV Shows and the Enneagram (perhaps I could blame my personality if I ever find the time to take one of those tests). But I do know I can find joy in God amidst the suffering of this world. His Word is that flash of light that shines in the darkness and reminds me that He has more power than I can either see or imagine. God’s Word reminds me to cling to the power of the light over darkness, to cling to hope, and fight for light to beget more light.
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